Tis the season to be a fatty… 

Well it is Christmas eves eve!  Yay.  I’m so excited to see Christmas thru Rylers eyes.  Having kids definitely makes it more fun and he doesn’t even get it yet.  I can’t wait til he does.  But yes I can.  Anyways,  he is some pics of the season so far.  Thanks for stopping by! 



Chapter 32

Well, here we are, 2 days away from my 32nd Birthday!

The thing about birthdays is I treat everyone the same, a brand new chapter where I am going to be happier and healthier! Then 2 days later I eat Mcdonalds for breakfast lunch and dinner…It’s kind of a problem.

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result, according to Einstein. So instead of driving myself cray cray, I am going to go about it in a different way this year…hence the blog.

This blog is indeed going to be the ongoing tale of raising Ryler and the realities of being a mother, but I am also going to share with you my health journey starting literally from scratch. (Even today I am drinking a Venti Gingerbread latte and ate a Tim Hortons sausage breakfast sandwich…) I am going to be proactive with my life and give myself nourishment, not just stuff myself with crap because thats how I feel lately.  Life has gotten very over whelming and I need to organize my brain!  I can’t be the only one out there that feels like this somedays ! I think this is just first time motherhood. So lets help eachother out!

Todays mission is to meal plan and grocery shop with Ryler when he wakes from his nap. He’s such a cutie bear, I need to be healthy for me but my god I need to be around for him.



6 months and 4 days old. My little Ryler Roo. xo


Welcome back me!

Hello friends! Long  time no talk. I was locked out of my blog account for the last few months because WordPress would not send me an email about me losing my password …. but here I am, I figured it out.

So I was going through my blog to see  what I had talked about last and it looks like it was at the very beginning of my pregnancy, so we have a lot to catch up on!

In my last blog I was 120 pounds, I shot up to 162 pounds at the end of my pregnancy (unfortunately). I am back down to 130, 5 months postpartum.

Pregnancy, that was a mindfuck. I have never been an emotional whale that pukes all the time before. I was miserable pregnant, I was also highly anxious because nobody knew what to do with me because I was born with what is called bladder exstrophy and finally after losing my shit to one of the gynecologist that I was seeing ( because I was seeing about seven of them and had to re-tell my story every single time I went there) they sent me to a surgeon that specializes in urology to talk about having a C-section. I met him at 33 weeks pregnant. He was amazing and thought that the gynecologists I was seeing were ridiculous for not sending me to him sooner.

I was put on bed rest starting the beginning of the third trimester because my pelvis is not constructed properly from my own birth and was separating improperly causing my hips to not be able to move easily and some mornings I couldn’t get up.  Oh and the fact that I puked daily pretty much up until the day of getting him out.

So may 11th at 1:30 PM our son was born.

I had literally never seen anything so perfect in my entire life .
It is every single cliché phrase that people have told you about having a child it is unimaginable until you experience it yourself.
So this is Ryler James . He was born 6 lbs. 14 oz. and 19 inches long at Royal Columbian Hospital in New Westminster British Columbia.

I think I will leave this blog post at that. My intentions at this point with my blog is to share what it is like to be a parent, to be a housewife and the struggle with postpartum/getting back into shape and trying to figure out how to not raise an asshole. Let me know about your blog I would love to follow !

Thanks friends. Xo


So this is me at 5 weeks. A little bloated but I have a natural bump there from scarring.

Preggooo. One of the many tests

One of the many tests I took .. just to make sure.


Starting weight of this adventure. I’ll throw a guess out there ill be 152 by the end of it. Lol

New Beginnings

Hello Blog!

Long time no talk!  The last couple weeks have been a whirlwind of emotions and good news. Daniel and I found out on the 14th that we are having our first child. Ahhh!

So we were half assed trying at the beginning of the summer as you can see in a previous blog but with how much I wasn’t getting aunt flo… I just kinda lost hope (cycle before I got pregnant was 60 days long…. and before that…80).

So end of August rolled around and I thought you know I’ve gotta be ovulating at some point soon! So I started testing with ovulation tests and on Sept 2nd and 3rd I had positive ovulation tests … but daniel and I both had fevers, but we didn’t care.  We had sex 2 days before and for the next 3 days regardless of fevers and then on september 13 I swear I saw a line forming, I showed Daniel and he told me I was seeing things. The next day it was darker, still very faded but I could make out more, Daniel finally believed me and the next day there was no doubt it was positive.  Of course I didnt believe my eyes so I went and bought a different brand since mine were internet cheap ones, new brand was even darker.  Then the next day I wanted to know how far along I was so we got a digital test at like 11 pm, it said pregnant 2 to 3 weeks which means im 4 to 5 weeks pregnant (oh the way they measure how far along you are).

So yeah, whirlwind indeed.  We have told a few people, no family just yet. We plan on taking his parents for dinner this weekend and telling them. We haven’t been to the doctor yet as I am still waiting for my medical number to come in but we’re hoping to go next week or the week after.

Symptoms are my boobs are pretty damn sore and itchy. Last week I was so constipated and would get ridiculous night sweats where I would have to change my shirt 3 times a night, thank god that didn’t last.   I can smell the world. I have no thrown up, the first week was kinda hard to eat just cuz nothing tasted good but this week I wanna eat everything, generally.

So yeah, time will tell. It’s still very early and I am hoping he or she stays. I’m very excited/nervous, I just want a dr to tell me everything is going awesome!

If there’s anyone newly preggo or trying to concieve I would love to follow your blogs as we go through this!  I have been taking lots of video and pictures of the whole process because I love to document!

Thanks so much for stopping by and putting up with all the TMI , cuz that’s what my blog is all about!!!


Caitlyn Jenner, Thoughts?

Well the world woke up to being introduced to Caitlyn Jenner, aka Bruce Jenner now that he has become a woman.   Normally I don’t care about celebrity gossip but a) Kardashians are my guilty pleasure b) I think this is amazing.  An olympic athlete with numerous kids has decided to stop denying who he is and it really is inspirational. People battle with this all the time these days and as I have seen the days where this wasn’t even heard of and now we’re going through a societal change/evolution , it is interesting to me that my future kids will know no different and maybe one day will want to be a woman or a man.  I say Caitlyn Jenner is a total babe and any kinda hate is a true reflection of the person hating. Open up your mind. You don’t need to get a sex change and that’s great but how someone else lives their life isn’t up to you, and if someone does something that makes them happy then you have issues not wanting that for someone and you should go figure yourself out. Everyone be strong and beautiful and most importantly , be you.

Go Baby Go

So I figured I would write about this to put it out in the universe and to get it off my shoulders but making babies is a process. I feel for women who have been trying for years, I am only on my second cycle (first one was 85 days long…) and with my cycle being so on her own clock I’m afraid it is going to take me years. I don’t know that many people blog about these kinda woes but it’s something I just need to let everyone know I am scared and stressed about, but still having a good time with it. Daniel (Husband) is so supportive and positive, he keeps me so grounded. We just wanna have a family and start the next chapter of our life.  Tomorrow is 8 months of being married and its been just over two months since we moved into our own place and had the ability to start “trying”(I love the phrase “we’re trying” .. and by trying I mean fucking a lot.) So if there’s anyone out there who is blogging about this kind of thing I’d love to hear your story.  I think knowing I’m not alone will kinda ease my stresses.  Sorry if this was TMI …oh wait..nope not sorry.  Thanks for coming by regardless and feel free to follow along on this thing called life.  Thanks friends 🙂